Last night we sprung ahead. I had planned to spend the night at a close friends' house since Matt was working. Sydonia has never slept away from home and we ended up having to go home in the middle of the night. Last night and today are a very challenging test of my patience. Lack of sleep is making it very difficult to be understanding of everyone else's lack of sleep attitude. Although, my practice has helped me carve out enough space to be able to appreciate the novelty of watching the clock change from 1:59 to 3:00 and appreciate a clear winter sky in the midst of gathering my things and driving home at 2 in the morning. I'm proud that even in frustration I can recognize the good. Izic thought it was fun. :)
Sometimes our impatience is directed toward a long term goal that hasn't yet come to fruition. I have become better at waiting, but there are times when you want your life to be something and realize that you got so impatient with waiting that you stopped trying for it.
The weather this winter. That's all I need to say.
I have a friend who has said for years the reward for patience is patience. So whether it be physical limitations in asana (or life), racing thoughts in meditation, or an expectation that isn't fulfilled, when we are able to settle into a comfortable place and wait without tension, we create ease in our lives. We can not help but reap reward.
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